What you want must be in alignment with who you are. Your deep thought process is taking your experiences and filtering them by your subconscious mind.
Your experiences will alter your wants. You hear a marketing pitch. You see a beautiful home or a salesperson makes you an amazing offer. Then you hear a political commentary. All of those things are designed to influence your wants and desires. It doesn’t mean they are all for you. Your subconscious mind is, at the same time, hearing different things.
I was working with a man a year ago on a project. The project was totally in my wheelhouse. This was in complete alignment with my skillset. I kept telling myself, “I was made for this.” There was just one problem. Everytime we spoke I finished the meeting drained. I was shut down. My creativity and imagination were gone. Emotionally I could no longer function. Something was wrong.
It wasn’t that I felt inferior around him. I wasn’t intimidated in any way. In fact I had a superior skillset for the task. Yet my subconscious mind was sending me signals that I was picking up, but not sure why. So I decided I need to pay better attention during our next meeting. Then I heard it. He would say, “It’s like taking candy from a baby.” When he said that I shut down. I lost my edge. My subconscious was putting the brakes on the project. I needed to pay attention.
I heard the words with my senses. He had said them several times over the time we were together. I needed my deep thought mind to interpret those words for me. This relationship wasn’t going to be in my best long term interest regardless of the financial gain it might represent. This relationship was beginning with the goal of taking advantage of other people and that’s not who I am. Time for me to exit.